{"id":140626,"date":"2020-12-24T03:03:51","date_gmt":"2020-12-24T00:03:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/en.buradabiliyorum.com\/taraji-p-henson-reveals-shes-had-suicidal-thoughts-during-lockdown-and-has-a-gun\/"},"modified":"2020-12-24T03:03:51","modified_gmt":"2020-12-24T00:03:51","slug":"taraji-p-henson-reveals-shes-had-suicidal-thoughts-during-lockdown-and-has-a-gun","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/buradabiliyorum.com\/en\/taraji-p-henson-reveals-shes-had-suicidal-thoughts-during-lockdown-and-has-a-gun\/","title":{"rendered":"#Taraji P. Henson Reveals She’s Had Suicidal Thoughts During Lockdown — And Has A Gun"},"content":{"rendered":"

“#Taraji P. Henson Reveals She’s Had Suicidal Thoughts During Lockdown — And Has A Gun
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\n2020 has been a tough year for many of us, but especially those predisposed to mental health struggle. And sadly, we\u2019ve just learned Taraji P. Henson<\/strong> is no stranger to that darkness.<\/p>\n

On Wednesday, the What Men Want<\/em> star shared her story of battling suicidal thoughts recently \u2014 and most shockingly the fact she has an actual gun sitting in her safe that she contemplated using.<\/p>\n

Related: Tamar Braxton Opens Up About Suicide Attempt!<\/strong><\/p>\n

In a mini episode of Peace of Mind with Taraji<\/em><\/a> on Facebook<\/a> Watch<\/strong>, the 50-year-old spoke with Dr.\u00a0LaShonda Green<\/strong> about some of the more insidious thoughts that have been racing through her mind during the lockdown.<\/p>\n

While we listened, our hearts broke for Taraji, especially because what she\u2019s going through right now is very relatable for so many people. With suicides on the rise during the time of COVID, it\u2019s very important for celebrities like this to speak out so we can all benefit from the conversation.<\/p>\n

In the segment, Taraji started by talking about her dark moment and included the information about her newly purchased gun. She said:<\/p>\n

\u201cSo during this pandemic, it\u2019s been hard on all of us and I had a moment. I had a dark moment. I was in a dark place. For a couple of days, I couldn\u2019t get out of bed, I didn\u2019t care. That\u2019s not me. Then, I started having thoughts about ending it. It happ<\/a>ened two nights in a row and I purchased a gun not too long ago, it\u2019s in a safe, and I started like, \u2018I could go in there right now and end it all, because I want it to be over.’\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Oh no\u2026 And nothing could bring her out of the darkness:<\/p>\n

\u201cI thought about my son, he\u2019s grown, he\u2019ll get over it. I didn\u2019t care. I felt myself withdrawing. People were calling me, I wasn\u2019t responding, I didn\u2019t care.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Wow. Just\u2026 awful. We\u2019re at a loss for words for how truly sad this all sounds, and we are so happy<\/em> Taraji did not got through with it. The most important aspect of this story is that the\u00a0Empire<\/em> star realized these were negative thoughts she shouldn\u2019t listen to, and she ended up deciding to confide in a friend about the suicide ideation she was experiencing. She shared her thought process about this decision and admitted:<\/p>\n

\u201cI felt like, if I don\u2019t say it, it becomes a plan. What scared me is I did it two nights in a row. First, it was like, \u2018I don\u2019t wanna be here.\u2019 Then I started thinking about going to get the gun and that\u2019s why when I woke up the next morning, I blurted it out.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Dr. Green, for her amazing part, had such wonderful things to add. She talked to Taraji about mental breakdowns, and how it\u2019s very unique to each individual. What might break one person down might not break someone else. She also added another important piece to the conversation \u2014 and that was about pressure that African American women face. She told Taraji:<\/p>\n

\u201cThat pressure in itself has created a lot of unrealistic expectations that are both self-imposed and imposed by others. But we also buy into it, because that\u2019s the one thing we have.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

LaShanda also talked about being aware of our negative thoughts. We can recognize they do happen, and we will sometimes think bad things, but we have the power to realize we shouldn\u2019t listen. The doctor stressed:<\/p>\n

\u201cYou don\u2019t have to believe every thought you have.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

That is such a powerful line. One we could all benefit from hearing.<\/p>\n

Fortunately, Taraji had (and has) her friends as support. She also received some amazing advice from the doctor who advised her to take some much-needed time off for herself and to stop working during holidays. Though it didn\u2019t come up, we kept thinking about the Empire<\/em> spinoff show the star signed on for, all her work that she does for her production company, TPH Entertainment<\/strong>, and her recent split with fianc\u00e9 Kelvin Hayden. Those three things alone are enough to add some major emotionally-taxing elements of stress to a person\u2019s psyche. All that and a pandemic, too.<\/p>\n

Here\u2019s a link to the episode below if you want to hear the entire conversation:<\/p>\n

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