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“#Lil Wayne Opens Up About Mental Health Issues, Details Suicide Attempt At Age 12
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\n[Warning: Potentially Triggering Content]<\/strong><\/p>\n

Lil Wayne<\/strong> is sharing his story.<\/p>\n

The rapp<\/a>er has reached legendary status in the hip hop community, but it was a long road to get to the top \u2014 and one he almost didn\u2019t survive. Wayne (real name Dwayne Michael Carter Jr.<\/strong>) has referenced his suicide attempt in his music, like 2015\u2019s London Roads<\/em> or Solange<\/strong>\u2019s 2016 track Mad<\/em>. He later admitted to Billboard<\/em> in 2018 that the gunshot wound he had frequently referred to as an accident was a deliberate attempt to take his own life.<\/p>\n

Related: Eminem\u2019s Ex-Wife Kim Scott Hospitalized After Reported Suicide Attempt<\/strong><\/p>\n

Now, the A Milli<\/em> artist has shared more details of the incident on a new episode of Uncomfortable Conversations with Emmanuel Acho<\/em>. He reached out to the host \u201choping I can help anyone else out there who\u2019s dealing with mental health problems by\u2026 being vulnerable.\u201d He said:<\/p>\n

\u201cTo me, I look at it by being brave and stepping up.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Asked when his mental health issues first started, he shared:<\/p>\n

\u201cYoung, yeah, as a kid around ten. When I was told that I couldn\u2019t have what I wanted, what I dream of, what I desired, and that was to rap. I was willing to die for it.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

As to how he realized he had a serious problem, the New Orleans native explained:<\/p>\n

\u201cOnce my thoughts got radical and got to where you\u2019ve got to stop yourself and stop and pause and say, \u2018What did you just think again?\u2019 Even if you\u2019ve cried yourself to sleep with that thought on your mind and wake up the next day and be like, \u2018I cannot believe I was thinking like that.’\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

The suicide attempt came after Nicki Minaj<\/strong>\u2019s mentor was caught lying to his mother to stay out after school ended. When an aunt warned him that his mom found out and would take his \u201crap folder\u201d away, the preteen Wayne had an extreme reaction:<\/p>\n

\u201cI picked up the phone, I called the police. Yes, I knew where she put her gun and it was in her bedroom. And so I went in her bedroom, grabbed the gun. I already made the phone call, looked in the mirror.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

He described psyching himself up while listening to Biggie<\/strong>, first aiming at his head and then his heart. He reflected:<\/p>\n

\u201cHow I knew I had mental health problems was I pulled the trigger.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

He recalled feeling no pain as he went into shock, thinking he was going to die. When the police arrived, they stepped over his body, shouting about finding drugs in the house. The 38-year-old said:<\/p>\n

\u201cIt took a guy named Uncle Bob<\/strong>. And he ran up there, when he got to the top of the steps and saw me there, he refused to even step over me. One of them yelled like, \u2018I got the drugs.\u2019 And that\u2019s when he went crazy. He was like, \u2018I don\u2019t give a (expletive) about no drugs. Do you not see the baby on the ground?\u2019<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

In a touching moment, Wayne shared that when he later reunited as a successful rapper with the officer who saved his life, Bob told him:<\/p>\n

\u201cI don\u2019t want nothing, I just want to say I\u2019m happy to see that I saved a life that mattered.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Wow. How special.<\/p>\n

The Grammy<\/strong> winner theorized that not be able to share his pain with anyone is what escalated his mental health issues:<\/p>\n

\u201cYou have no one to vent to, no one to get this out to. You can\u2019t bring it to your friends at school \u2013 you\u2019re still trying to be cool to them. You\u2019re not trying to let them know you\u2019ve got something going on at home.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

The one silver lining, however, was that his single mother completely changed her parenting style after the drastic incident:<\/p>\n

\u201cThe mom that I knew before that day, on my life and everyone\u2019s life, I have never met or seen or heard that lady again in my life. So I didn\u2019t die that day, but somebody was gone.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Related: Lizzo Breaks Down In Tears Reacting To \u2018Fatphobic\u2019 & \u2018Racist\u2019 Critics<\/strong><\/p>\n

Today, Wayne doesn\u2019t do therapy, but prays frequently and takes comfort in being able to do what he loves. In his message to fans who may be struggling, he stated:<\/p>\n

\u201cWhat I wish they knew is that it\u2019s real and there is no bar to measure how real. It\u2019s real. It\u2019s so real that if someone even has the guts, the heart, the bravery, whatever to at least admit that they have something going on up there that they\u2019re not sure about, it\u2019s so real that we should only react in the realest way possible.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

This is such an important message. We\u2019re grateful for Wayne is still here to tell his story, and for his vulnerability. We hope it reaches the fans who need it.<\/p>\n

See his full conversation with Emmanuel Acho<\/strong> (below):<\/p>\n