{"id":473528,"date":"2022-07-12T19:02:07","date_gmt":"2022-07-12T16:02:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/en.buradabiliyorum.com\/five-years-and-a-near-death-experience-later-teen-suicide-returns\/"},"modified":"2022-07-12T19:02:07","modified_gmt":"2022-07-12T16:02:07","slug":"five-years-and-a-near-death-experience-later-teen-suicide-returns","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/buradabiliyorum.com\/en\/five-years-and-a-near-death-experience-later-teen-suicide-returns\/","title":{"rendered":"#Five years and a near-death experience later, Teen Suicide returns"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"ez-toc-container\" class=\"ez-toc-v2_0_85 counter-hierarchy ez-toc-counter ez-toc-custom ez-toc-container-direction\">\n<p class=\"ez-toc-title\" style=\"cursor:inherit\">Table of Contents<\/p>\n<label for=\"ez-toc-cssicon-toggle-item-6a41315950c19\" class=\"ez-toc-cssicon-toggle-label\"><span class=\"\"><span class=\"eztoc-hide\" style=\"display:none;\">Toggle<\/span><span class=\"ez-toc-icon-toggle-span\"><svg style=\"fill: #dd3333;color:#dd3333\" xmlns=\"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/2000\/svg\" class=\"list-377408\" width=\"20px\" height=\"20px\" viewBox=\"0 0 24 24\" fill=\"none\"><path d=\"M6 6H4v2h2V6zm14 0H8v2h12V6zM4 11h2v2H4v-2zm16 0H8v2h12v-2zM4 16h2v2H4v-2zm16 0H8v2h12v-2z\" fill=\"currentColor\"><\/path><\/svg><svg style=\"fill: #dd3333;color:#dd3333\" class=\"arrow-unsorted-368013\" xmlns=\"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/2000\/svg\" width=\"10px\" height=\"10px\" viewBox=\"0 0 24 24\" version=\"1.2\" baseProfile=\"tiny\"><path d=\"M18.2 9.3l-6.2-6.3-6.2 6.3c-.2.2-.3.4-.3.7s.1.5.3.7c.2.2.4.3.7.3h11c.3 0 .5-.1.7-.3.2-.2.3-.5.3-.7s-.1-.5-.3-.7zM5.8 14.7l6.2 6.3 6.2-6.3c.2-.2.3-.5.3-.7s-.1-.5-.3-.7c-.2-.2-.4-.3-.7-.3h-11c-.3 0-.5.1-.7.3-.2.2-.3.5-.3.7s.1.5.3.7z\"\/><\/svg><\/span><\/span><\/label><input type=\"checkbox\"  id=\"ez-toc-cssicon-toggle-item-6a41315950c19\" checked aria-label=\"Toggle\" \/><nav><ul class='ez-toc-list ez-toc-list-level-1 ' ><li class='ez-toc-page-1 ez-toc-heading-level-1'><a class=\"ez-toc-link ez-toc-heading-1\" href=\"https:\/\/buradabiliyorum.com\/en\/five-years-and-a-near-death-experience-later-teen-suicide-returns\/#%E2%80%9CFive_years_and_a_near-death_experience_later_Teen_Suicide_returns%E2%80%9D\" >&#8220;Five years and a near-death experience later, Teen Suicide returns&#8221;<\/a><\/li><\/ul><\/nav><\/div>\n<h1><span class=\"ez-toc-section\" id=\"%E2%80%9CFive_years_and_a_near-death_experience_later_Teen_Suicide_returns%E2%80%9D\"><\/span>&#8220;Five years and a near-death experience later, Teen Suicide returns&#8221;<span class=\"ez-toc-section-end\"><\/span><\/h1>\n<div class=\"content_blocks\">\n<style>\n #content_block-234613 {\n   background: #e2d3b0;\n   padding-bottom: 40px;\n }<\/p>\n<\/style>\n<style>\n<p> #content_block-234613 {\n   background: #e2d3b0;\n   margin-bottom: 60px;\n }<\/p>\n<p> article.custom .custom-title, article.custom .custom-<a href=\"https:\/\/buradabiliyorum.com\/en\/category\/social-mediaa\/\" data-internallinksmanager029f6b8e52c=\"1\" title=\"Social Media\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">media<\/a> .caption {\n   color: #b72d47;\n }<\/p>\n<p> article.custom .custom-attribution, article.custom .custom-attribution a {\n   color: #b72d47;\n }<\/p>\n<p> article.custom .content_block blockquote.pull_quote {\n   color: #b72d47;\n }\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234613\" class=\"content_block flush title center_align\">\n<div class=\"content_inner_wrapper\">\n<div class=\"custom-title\">\n      Five years and a near-death experience later, Teen Suicide returns\n    <\/div>\n<div class=\"custom-description\">\n      Worried that he wouldn\u2019t live to see his next album\u2019s release, the prolific Sam Ray planned a sprawling opus for the return of his Teen Suicide project. Then he ended up in the ICU.\n    <\/div>\n<div class=\"custom-attribution\">\n<div class=\"author\">\n    <span><br \/>\n      By <span class=\"credit_name\">Alex Robert Ross<\/span><br \/>\n  <\/span><\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<div class=\"custom-media\">\n<div class=\"triple_gutter_left triple_gutter_right image center_align\">\n<p>  <img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/thefader-res.cloudinary.com\/private_images\/w_1440,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:best\/TeenSucide_posed01_NICK-HUGHES_yais7x\/teen-suicide-new-album-sam-ray-interview-profile-honeybee-table-at-the-butterfly-feast-american-pleasure-club-ricky-eat-acid.jpg\" srcset=\"https:\/\/thefader-res.cloudinary.com\/private_images\/w_220,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:best\/TeenSucide_posed01_NICK-HUGHES_yais7x\/teen-suicide-new-album-sam-ray-interview-profile-honeybee-table-at-the-butterfly-feast-american-pleasure-club-ricky-eat-acid.jpg 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three years, and nobody really knew why. Antibiotics and nebulizer treatments hadn\u2019t helped much, but doctors figured out early on that a steady stream of steroids would mask the symptoms. \u201cThis begins a cycle of being able to breathe because they give me medicine that makes me physically able to breathe, but everything medically is getting worse and they&#8217;re not addressing it,\u201d the 31-year-old Ray says now. \u201cAnd so this keeps going back and forth. I feel good, medicine ends, I feel terrible, I wake up gasping for breath.\u201d <\/p>\n<p>            Doctors didn\u2019t take Ray\u2019s respiratory problems seriously until the night, last October, when he almost died. His wife, Kitty, took control of his Twitter account to write that Sam had suffered an asthma attack and was on a ventilator in the ICU. She asked for \u201cevery positive vibe in the world.\u201d <\/p>\n<p>            In some sense, Ray had seen this coming. &#8220;I feel like I&#8217;m going to die at any second,&#8221; he told Colin Joyce at The FADER eight years ago. &#8220;It&#8217;s not even totally a health thing \u2014 I just feel constant anxiety in the world. Shit, I&#8217;m 23, but the world could end any minute. You just have to live with so much urgency.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>            He\u2019s absolutely lived with that urgency in the years since. Ray is a compulsively prolific artist, one of the most frenetic musicians of the late internet age, someone who releases albums at such a furious pace that even some committed fans struggle to keep up. The projects often have little in common with each other, at least on the surface. The utopian-sounding ambient album <a rel=\"nofollow noopener\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/rickyeatacid.bandcamp.com\/album\/am-i-happy-singing\"><i>am i happy, singing<\/i><\/a>, released as heroin party, is a full universe away from the scratchy lo-fi pop record he released as <a rel=\"nofollow noopener\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/starrycat.bandcamp.com\/album\/starry-cat\">starry cat<\/a>. The melancholia of Julia Brown\u2019s 2016 LP <a rel=\"nofollow noopener\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/cool.bandcamp.com\/album\/an-abundance-of-strawberries\"><i>An Abundance of Strawberries<\/i><\/a> has little in common with American Pleasure Club\u2019s visceral 2019 <i><a rel=\"nofollow noopener\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/americanpleasureclub.bandcamp.com\/album\/tour-tape\">Tour Tape<\/a><\/i>. Often these are strange, feverish things too \u2014 projects that jump from one idea to the next in a flicker. Ray last released an album as Teen Suicide, the project for which he\u2019s now best known, in 2015. <i>It\u2019s The Big Joyous Celebration, Let\u2019s Stir the Honeypot<\/i> sprawled out over 26 tracks, jumping from electronica to psychedelia to naive pop between euphoric blasts of distortion. <\/p>\n<p>            Ray had doubled down on that urgency in that three-year stretch before his near-death experience. He was trying to write and record what would become Teen Suicide\u2019s <i>honeybee table at the butterfly feast<\/i>, announced today and due out via Run For Cover on August 26. He was increasingly certain that, even if he finished it in time, he wouldn\u2019t live long enough to see the record released. \u201cI always say that I want to make whatever album I&#8217;m making my final statement, just because you don&#8217;t know if you&#8217;re going to get to make another one,\u201d he says.<\/p><\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<style>\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234629\" class=\"content_block paragraph text triple_gutter_right triple_gutter_left center_align\">\n<div class=\"content_inner_wrapper\">\n<div class=\"paragraph_wrapper center_align\">\n<div class=\"\" style=\"padding-bottom: 20px; margin-top: 20px; text-align: left;\">\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<style>\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234606\" class=\"content_block breaker triple_gutter_right triple_gutter_left embed\">\n<div class=\"media_wrapper\">\n<div class=\"\">\n    <iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Teen Suicide - &quot;get high, breathe underwater (#3)&quot; (Official Audio)\" width=\"640\" height=\"360\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/P7zqFLNameE?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<style>\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234605\" class=\"content_block paragraph text triple_gutter_right triple_gutter_left center_align\">\n<div class=\"content_inner_wrapper\">\n<div class=\"paragraph_wrapper center_align\">\n<p>            Even by those standards there was an exceptional intensity to the making of <i>honeybee<\/i>. Ray could barely breathe, let alone sing. Unable to record vocals, he kept writing as best he could without his first instrument, adding new songs to the dozens he\u2019d already set aside. He had to get everything onto paper. \u201cI feel horrible. I cannot breathe,\u201d he remembers. \u201cEven if I&#8217;m fine, I haven&#8217;t been able to sing in years at this point. Normally it&#8217;s only getting worse. [Even] if I&#8217;m fine, I don&#8217;t know if I&#8217;m going to be able to do this anymore. So I have to get all of these ideas out. All of these songs in my head, all these demos, everything has to get down now. Because who knows?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>            Ray\u2019s recovery that night at the ICU was, <a rel=\"nofollow noopener\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/fugazi420\/status\/1447629376187678724\">Kitty wrote on Twitter<\/a>, \u201cmiraculous.\u201d He was awake and responsive and pretty soon he was on his way home, pumped full of yet more steroids. \u201cThey had me on so many steroids, I could sing better than I ever had in my life,\u201d he says. \u201cSo in that span of time, I tried to do everything I possibly could.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>            He was frantic. Within two days he\u2019d composed and recorded an acoustic song called \u201ci will always be in love with you\u201d for Kitty. He laid down the vocals for the aptly titled \u201cviolence violence,\u201d a terrifying track in which he screams like he\u2019s expelling a demon, and he finally finished \u201ccoyote (2015-2021),\u201d which really had been lying around half-finished for six years.<\/p><\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<style>\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234630\" class=\"content_block paragraph text triple_gutter_right triple_gutter_left center_align\">\n<div class=\"content_inner_wrapper\">\n<div class=\"paragraph_wrapper center_align\">\n<div class=\"\" style=\"padding-bottom: 20px; margin-top: 20px; text-align: left;\">\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<style>\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234608\" class=\"content_block breaker triple_gutter_right triple_gutter_left embed\">\n<div class=\"media_wrapper\">\n<div class=\"\">\n    <iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Teen Suicide - &quot;coyote (2015-2021)&quot; (Official Audio)\" width=\"640\" height=\"360\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/72Nz8aYKNek?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<style>\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234607\" class=\"content_block paragraph text triple_gutter_right triple_gutter_left center_align\">\n<div class=\"content_inner_wrapper\">\n<div class=\"paragraph_wrapper center_align\">\n<p>\n            But then the steroids wore off. And rather than committing to the sprawl, adding in even his most ephemeral thoughts just to hedge against death, he began to see things more clearly: \u201cI started thinking, \u2018Okay, that was kind of insane.\u2019 Clearly I was right, I almost died. But I didn&#8217;t, and I&#8217;m probably not going to now, not from this. It looks like they&#8217;re trying to figure it out, I\u2019ll breathe again and sing again. I realized, this Sisyphean task I&#8217;ve been taking on of recording all of these songs while being sick, adding more all the time\u2026 I never even thought about the end product. I only thought about having to get everything done.\u201d <\/p>\n<p>            A few days after returning from the hospital, he looked at the songs he\u2019d recorded and realized that, rather than being months away from completing the enormous album he\u2019d imagined before his breath began to shorten, he\u2019d recorded a whole album already. <\/p>\n<p>            Over the phone now, walking around his neighborhood in Philadelphia and occasionally pausing as trucks clunk past, Ray says that this isn\u2019t the \u201coriginal idea\u201d he\u2019d had for <i>honeybee<\/i> years ago. Aside from it being shorter than he planned, its texture is different from anything he\u2019s made before. This album was conceived and partly written before a pandemic that was particularly fraught for someone whose lungs were giving out. <i>It\u2019s The Big Joyous Celebration, Let\u2019s Stir the Honeypot<\/i> had a coarse throughline, that gnarl and abandon and clatter of a few people in a room with guitars and drums. <i>honeybee<\/i> doesn\u2019t have such an easily discernible sonic backbone.<\/p>\n<p>            Instead what holds <i>honeybee table at the butterfly feast<\/i> together is the friction between its disparate sounds and ideas, those contradictions in close quarters. And within those contradictions is an idea that Ray has been driving at for most of his career. It goes back at least as far as the Ricky Eat Acid album <i>Three Love Songs<\/i>, an instrumental record inspired by a recurring dream of the world ending without fanfare or drama. This time, on <i>honeybee<\/i>\u2019s \u201cnew strategies for telemarketing through precognitive dreams,\u201d he sings: \u201cAlways knew I&#8217;d live to see the world start to end, but I thought I&#8217;d feel something when it did.\u201d<\/p><\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<style>\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234631\" class=\"content_block paragraph text triple_gutter_right triple_gutter_left center_align\">\n<div class=\"content_inner_wrapper\">\n<div class=\"paragraph_wrapper center_align\">\n<div class=\"\" style=\"padding-bottom: 20px; margin-top: 20px; text-align: left;\">\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<style>\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234611\" class=\"content_block breaker triple_gutter_right triple_gutter_left embed\">\n<div class=\"media_wrapper\">\n<div class=\"\">\n    <center><iframe style=\"border: 0; width: 700px; height: 940px;\" src=\"https:\/\/bandcamp.com\/EmbeddedPlayer\/album=3441413581\/size=large\/bgcol=ffffff\/linkcol=0687f5\/tracklist=false\/transparent=true\/\" seamless><a rel=\"nofollow noopener\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/rickyeatacid.bandcamp.com\/album\/three-love-songs\">Three Love Songs by Ricky Eat Acid<\/a><\/iframe><\/center>\n<\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<style>\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234612\" class=\"content_block paragraph text triple_gutter_right triple_gutter_left center_align\">\n<div class=\"content_inner_wrapper\">\n<div class=\"paragraph_wrapper center_align\">\n<p>\n            On first listen, at the back end of one of the more conventional indie rock songs he\u2019s written in the past few years (and the closest he\u2019s gotten to his favorite band, The Wrens) it might seem like he\u2019s greeting the apocalypse with a shrug. But in this context it sounds almost uplifting, freeing, as if there\u2019s nothing to fear in disaster. \u201cnew strategies\u2026\u201d bleeds into \u201cviolence violence\u201d and \u201ccoyote (2015-2021),\u201d terror followed by complete bliss. He\u2019s trying to capture, he says, both \u201cextreme horror, and the little moments of transcendence and peace that you can still allow yourself\u201d in the midst of that horror. <\/p>\n<p>            This is partly about romance in the grandest sense, the notion that even the apocalypse can\u2019t nullify your memories of falling in love. But really it\u2019s more mundane, less cataclysmic than that. \u201cIt&#8217;s love, sure. But everything, not just companionship in that way. Just the simple act of people side by side, house by house, hut by hut \u2014 as long as that&#8217;s existing there&#8217;s going to be those moments of almost unimaginable beauty and heartbreak that don&#8217;t make sense.\u201d It\u2019s the angst on the disorienting \u201cunwanted houseguest,\u201d caught up in ugly memories, \u201ctaking on new frustrations like tired, unsellable homes \/ paranoid and ghost-dense.\u201d And it\u2019s the utter calm of the next track \u201cgroceries,\u201d where a \u201cgood day\u201d involves doing the laundry, grabbing coffee, realizing that you are in love, and eventually realizing that you are nothing. <\/p><\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<style>\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234617\" class=\"content_block breaker triple_gutter_right triple_gutter_left pull_quote\">\n<div class=\"media_wrapper\">\n<blockquote class=\"pull_quote\"><p>\u201cI&#8217;ve always thought that making good art, real art, is fundamentally extremely corny. You have to accept you\u2019re doing something that\u2019s really easy to get made fun of if you want to do it well.\u201d<\/p><\/blockquote><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<style>\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234632\" class=\"content_block paragraph text triple_gutter_right triple_gutter_left center_align\">\n<div class=\"content_inner_wrapper\">\n<div class=\"paragraph_wrapper center_align\">\n<div class=\"\" style=\"padding-bottom: 20px; margin-top: 20px; text-align: left;\">\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<style>\n<\/style>\n<div id=\"content_block-234618\" class=\"content_block paragraph text triple_gutter_right triple_gutter_left center_align\">\n<div class=\"content_inner_wrapper\">\n<div class=\"paragraph_wrapper center_align\">\n<p>\n            Ray volunteers that there\u2019s something corny about all this, about writing a love song, about being back in a Philadelphia basement with his buddies and still trying to channel the bands who influenced him in his early 20s, about trying to express this notion of love through the mundane. But that\u2019s the point: \u201cI&#8217;ve always thought that making good art, real art, is fundamentally extremely corny. You have to accept you&#8217;re doing something that&#8217;s really easy to get made fun of if you want to do it well.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>            That, Ray says, is the difference between the Teen Suicide that faded away five years ago and the project that\u2019s returning with <i>honeybee table at the butterfly feast<\/i>. \u201cBack then I was concerned with how to do that in a way that kept me from looking uncool, which I don&#8217;t care about anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>            That\u2019s a consequence of the passing of time, of growing up. But when Ray talks now, it\u2019s hard not to hear the resolve of a compulsive songwriter who dragged himself back from the ICU. \u201cI was afraid to just do something good, to just write the perfect song. I didn&#8217;t think I could, I guess, which is normal. And I don&#8217;t know if I can now. 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