{"id":94505,"date":"2020-10-21T20:13:15","date_gmt":"2020-10-21T17:13:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/en.buradabiliyorum.com\/i-didnt-want-to-be-here\/"},"modified":"2020-10-21T20:13:15","modified_gmt":"2020-10-21T17:13:15","slug":"i-didnt-want-to-be-here","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/buradabiliyorum.com\/en\/i-didnt-want-to-be-here\/","title":{"rendered":"#&#8217;I didn&#8217;t want to be here&#8217;"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"ez-toc-container\" class=\"ez-toc-v2_0_84 counter-hierarchy ez-toc-counter ez-toc-custom ez-toc-container-direction\">\n<p class=\"ez-toc-title\" style=\"cursor:inherit\">Table of Contents<\/p>\n<label for=\"ez-toc-cssicon-toggle-item-6a2d8e50cac02\" class=\"ez-toc-cssicon-toggle-label\"><span class=\"\"><span class=\"eztoc-hide\" style=\"display:none;\">Toggle<\/span><span class=\"ez-toc-icon-toggle-span\"><svg style=\"fill: #dd3333;color:#dd3333\" xmlns=\"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/2000\/svg\" class=\"list-377408\" width=\"20px\" height=\"20px\" viewBox=\"0 0 24 24\" fill=\"none\"><path d=\"M6 6H4v2h2V6zm14 0H8v2h12V6zM4 11h2v2H4v-2zm16 0H8v2h12v-2zM4 16h2v2H4v-2zm16 0H8v2h12v-2z\" fill=\"currentColor\"><\/path><\/svg><svg style=\"fill: #dd3333;color:#dd3333\" class=\"arrow-unsorted-368013\" xmlns=\"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/2000\/svg\" width=\"10px\" height=\"10px\" viewBox=\"0 0 24 24\" version=\"1.2\" baseProfile=\"tiny\"><path d=\"M18.2 9.3l-6.2-6.3-6.2 6.3c-.2.2-.3.4-.3.7s.1.5.3.7c.2.2.4.3.7.3h11c.3 0 .5-.1.7-.3.2-.2.3-.5.3-.7s-.1-.5-.3-.7zM5.8 14.7l6.2 6.3 6.2-6.3c.2-.2.3-.5.3-.7s-.1-.5-.3-.7c-.2-.2-.4-.3-.7-.3h-11c-.3 0-.5.1-.7.3-.2.2-.3.5-.3.7s.1.5.3.7z\"\/><\/svg><\/span><\/span><\/label><input type=\"checkbox\"  id=\"ez-toc-cssicon-toggle-item-6a2d8e50cac02\" checked aria-label=\"Toggle\" \/><nav><ul class='ez-toc-list ez-toc-list-level-1 ' ><li class='ez-toc-page-1 ez-toc-heading-level-2'><a class=\"ez-toc-link ez-toc-heading-1\" href=\"https:\/\/buradabiliyorum.com\/en\/i-didnt-want-to-be-here\/#How_did_you_attempt_suicide_in_2015\" >How did you attempt suicide in 2015?<\/a><\/li><li class='ez-toc-page-1 ez-toc-heading-level-2'><a class=\"ez-toc-link ez-toc-heading-2\" href=\"https:\/\/buradabiliyorum.com\/en\/i-didnt-want-to-be-here\/#Were_you_sorry_that_your_last_attempt_failed\" >Were you sorry that your last attempt failed?<\/a><\/li><li class='ez-toc-page-1 ez-toc-heading-level-2'><a class=\"ez-toc-link ez-toc-heading-3\" href=\"https:\/\/buradabiliyorum.com\/en\/i-didnt-want-to-be-here\/#Is_there_a_history_of_mental_illness_in_your_family\" >Is there a history of mental illness in your family?<\/a><\/li><li class='ez-toc-page-1 ez-toc-heading-level-2'><a class=\"ez-toc-link ez-toc-heading-4\" href=\"https:\/\/buradabiliyorum.com\/en\/i-didnt-want-to-be-here\/#Whats_the_most_important_message_you_want_to_convey_regarding_mental_health_and_wellness\" >What\u2019s the most important message you want to convey regarding mental health and wellness?<\/a><\/li><\/ul><\/nav><\/div>\n<p>&#8220;<strong>#&#8217;I didn&#8217;t want to be here&#8217;<\/strong>&#8221;<\/p>\n<div>\n                        \u201cThe Talk\u201d recently marked its 10th anniversary on CBS, a decade underscored by outspoken co-host Sharon Osbourne\u2019s willingness to chat about anything, including her decades-long battle with depression.<\/p>\n<p>Osbourne had mentioned her past suicide attempts briefly but, earlier this month \u2014 on an episode of \u201cThe Talk\u201d about mental-health awareness and wellness \u2014 she revealed her 2015 attempt, which was kept quiet at the time while she took a five-week hiatus from the show to recover. Upon her return, she told viewers that she \u201ccollapsed from mental and physical fatigue\u201d and that \u201cit was a bump in the road.\u201d Later, she opened up further and said she \u201cwas severely depressed and had a breakdown at the time.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>In an interview with The Post, Osbourne, 68, elaborated on her struggles, which she keeps in check with a regimen of medication and therapy. \u201cPeople look at me like, \u2018Oh, she\u2019s so strong. She\u2019s such a loudmouth, she\u2019s this, she\u2019s that,\u2019 \u201d she said. \u201cBut that\u2019s just one side of me. When you\u2019re the matriarch of a family and run a business and work at your own career, things just pile up.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI was at the point several times where I just couldn\u2019t take it anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Osbourne \u2014 who <a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/pagesix.com\/2020\/10\/03\/sharon-osbourne-67-and-ozzy-71-still-have-sex-couple-of-times-a-week\/\">has been married<\/a> to rock icon Ozzy Osbourne, 71, for 38 years \u2014 wants to help remove the stigma associated with mental-health issues and spoke to The Post about her journey to the depths of despair, climbing out of her dark emotional abyss and, most importantly, how people struggling with this illness are not alone.<\/p>\n<h2><span class=\"ez-toc-section\" id=\"How_did_you_attempt_suicide_in_2015\"><\/span>How did you attempt suicide in 2015?<span class=\"ez-toc-section-end\"><\/span><\/h2>\n<p>I took a whole bunch of pills. I did. I have to admit, the first two [attempts, also with pills] were a cry for help. But not the last one. People think because you work on TV or film or whatever it is, and you\u2019re a known personality, \u201cWell, they don\u2019t have problems.\u201d We have the same problems as everyone else. There are only a handful of problems, and they go around and around and around. It\u2019s something people don\u2019t understand, the voices in your head \u2026 the repetitive thoughts in your mind. You try to sleep at night, but you can\u2019t, because there\u2019s that voice over and over again \u2014 and you\u2019ll do anything to make it stop. But it won\u2019t.<\/p>\n<h2><span class=\"ez-toc-section\" id=\"Were_you_sorry_that_your_last_attempt_failed\"><\/span>Were you sorry that your last attempt failed?<span class=\"ez-toc-section-end\"><\/span><\/h2>\n<p>Yes. I didn\u2019t want to be here. But I learned so much about coping mechanisms while I was in treatment. I talk to my therapist as often as I can, and I\u2019m in a really good place now. It\u2019s important to talk about it. However bad the situation is at the time, however dark your life might be, things change, situations change. You just have to get that moment of clarity \u2026 to pick up the phone and reach out for help.<\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_16488906\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><img class=\"size-nypost-large-desktop-uncropped wp-image-16488906 lazyload\" alt=\"Sharon Osbourne catches up with Eve, Amanda Kloots, Carrie Ann Inaba and Sheryl Underwood on a recent episode of &quot;The Talk.&quot;\" width=\"662\" height=\"441\" srcset=\"https:\/\/nypost.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/2\/2020\/10\/sharon-osbourne-suicide-the-talk-3-copy.jpg?quality=90&amp;strip=all&amp;w=300 300w, https:\/\/nypost.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/2\/2020\/10\/sharon-osbourne-suicide-the-talk-3-copy.jpg?quality=90&amp;strip=all&amp;w=640 640w, https:\/\/nypost.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/2\/2020\/10\/sharon-osbourne-suicide-the-talk-3-copy.jpg?quality=90&amp;strip=all&amp;w=1280 1280w, https:\/\/nypost.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/2\/2020\/10\/sharon-osbourne-suicide-the-talk-3-copy.jpg?quality=90&amp;strip=all&amp;w=662 662w, https:\/\/nypost.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/2\/2020\/10\/sharon-osbourne-suicide-the-talk-3-copy.jpg?quality=90&amp;strip=all&amp;w=1324 1324w\" data-sizes=\"(max-width: 640px) 100vw, 662px\"\/><figcaption class=\"wp-caption-text\"><span>Sharon Osbourne catches up with Eve (not pictured), Amanda Kloots, Carrie Ann Inaba and Sheryl Underwood on a recent episode of \u201cThe Talk.\u201d<\/span><span class=\"credit\">CBS<\/span><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<h2><span class=\"ez-toc-section\" id=\"Is_there_a_history_of_mental_illness_in_your_family\"><\/span>Is there a history of mental illness in your family?<span class=\"ez-toc-section-end\"><\/span><\/h2>\n<p>I don\u2019t know, but I think my mother was very depressed, only because she would take to her room for days at a time and not talk, and I never knew why and didn\u2019t understand what it was. Only as I got older and my depression got worse did I realize that it wasn\u2019t something that just started. I\u2019ve had it all my life but I didn\u2019t know until I was in my 40s what it was.<\/p>\n<h2><span class=\"ez-toc-section\" id=\"Whats_the_most_important_message_you_want_to_convey_regarding_mental_health_and_wellness\"><\/span>What\u2019s the most important message you want to convey regarding mental health and wellness?<span class=\"ez-toc-section-end\"><\/span><\/h2>\n<p>I don\u2019t want people to do what I did and feel like, \u201cThere\u2019s something wrong with me. Why aren\u2019t I like everybody else?\u201d I didn\u2019t get help as a young woman \u2014 I didn\u2019t know what was wrong with me and I didn\u2019t understand the thoughts I had and why I would isolate and feel all of these things. I was just so depressed but I didn\u2019t <em>understand<\/em> I was depressed. Believe me, there are millions of people all over the world who feel the same way. They\u2019ve just got to go and get help. If you had a bad leg or a bad arm, you would go and get it fixed. This is your brain, and it\u2019s not firing the way it should, so you go get it fixed. It\u2019s nothing to be ashamed of. It hurts me that there are people living with this and \u2026 don\u2019t know where to go, how to take that first step and call a helpline.<\/p>\n<p><em>If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts or are experiencing a mental health crisis, call the 24\/7 National Suicide Prevention hotline at 800-273-8255 or go to <a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/suicidepreventionlifeline.org\/\">SuicidePreventionLifeline.org<\/a>. <\/em>\n            <\/div>\n<blockquote>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">For forums sites go to <span style=\"color: #ff9900;\"><a style=\"color: #ff9900;\" href=\"https:\/\/forum.buradabiliyorum.com\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Forum.BuradaBiliyorum.Com<\/a><\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<blockquote>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>If you want to read more <a href=\"https:\/\/buradabiliyorum.com\/en\/category\/news\/\" data-internallinksmanager029f6b8e52c=\"2\" title=\"News\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">News<\/a> articles, you can visit our <span style=\"color: #ff9900;\"><a style=\"color: #ff9900;\" href=\"https:\/\/en.buradabiliyorum.com\/news\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">News category.<\/a><\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p><span style=\"color: black;\"><a style=\"color: #ff9900;\" href=\"https:\/\/nypost.com\/2020\/10\/21\/sharon-osbourne-on-suicide-attempts-i-didnt-want-to-be-here\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Source<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;#&#8217;I didn&#8217;t want to be here&#8217;&#8221; \u201cThe Talk\u201d recently marked its 10th anniversary on CBS, a decade underscored by outspoken co-host Sharon Osbourne\u2019s willingness to chat about anything, including her decades-long battle with depression. 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